Its a learning Process

My Day was filled with activity. This morning I woke up around 3 am , and just couldn't go back to sleep. I tried, unsuccessfully to get more than a couple more hours of rest, in about one hour increments. Eventually i was awakened by Masters phone call around 3 pm. My entire body wanted so badly just to lay there and rest, but I got up and started chatting with her on yahoo. Shortly after I started cleaning my room, which was in a major state of disrepair. I moved the cam as I went along so she could watch me work. I started and finished a couple of loads of laundry in between. Everything was going really well, until that is, it was realized that I'd inadvertently been disobedient. Master had told me to start keeping count of how many cigarettes I had during the day and that my limit was thirty. So this evening she asked me how many id had so far today, and of course, I didn't know. This led to a lot of shame and guilt on my part. I could tell that she was disappointed in me. I am being punished by not being able to smoke again for several hours until i got to bed. This is hell, my body craves its chemicals, craves familiar motions and the like, but worse is the understanding that I let her down. I am certainly going to be more attentive to what she says in the future. I want to serve this woman well, I want her to be as pleased in owning me as she can be. Im going to bed soon, my body and mind are exhuasted. Will update tomorrow.