Today has seemed excessively long. Primarily due to the fact that I've had little sleep for the past week. Master came online around 1, and we have been chatting ever since. Things have gone much better today. I have remembered to keep track of my smoking. having to wait for periods of time in between each one has certainly thrown me off, but i am slowly getting more accustomed to it. Around three Master shooed me off to shower and get cleaned up / pretty for her. After returning I did more cleaning to my room, including changing the sheets on my bed and making it neat / tidy , and presentable while she went out to get some food. She had her fiancee with her when she returned whom she had already told about me. She messaged me to say that all was well and that he was okay with me being her pet. I was excessively relieved to say the least. I had already looked over his profile, and he seemed like a nice guy, but my tendency to worry sometimes knows no limits. I didn't get to actually meet him via cam this evening, Master hasn't been live thus far. I was however grateful that I got to do a task for him. Sincere slaves are aware of their blessings and certainly willing to take small steps. I was somewhat nervous and shy feeling at first, knowing he was watching me via the cam, but Master was very kind and doting, something I've grown very fond of. After the task was completed, I went online and found information describing how to braid hair. It was Masters suggestion that I find out and start practicing, and I'm happy she did. Learning to do it is hard. It requires patience, and for me at least, a great deal of concentration. I was using a mirror trying to get the parts equal, and Master suggested that I do it like she does and try to 'feel" it instead. Being a good slave, I closed my eyes and did my best to follow her example. This lead me to a thought, learning to feel the hair, is like learning to open myself even further and trust in my Masters lead. Letting go, is both a frightening and exhilarating thing. The pleasure and serenity found in surrender and obedience is well beyond my description. Tonight has been intensely emotional for me. In a good way. I almost burst out into tears earlier when telling Master how happy I was. I haven't cried in ages especially not out of gratefulness and joy. I certainly don't normally do it in front of people. Thankfully I don't think Master or her fiancee saw though, as no one mentioned it. I would have been overly embarrassed. I don't want Master to think I'm overly emotional, I just care a lot, and this lifestyle, this Woman, means a great deal to me. I'm going shopping tomorrow for supplies, both "toys" and things of general use. Of course Master insisted that I go with my hair as it is, poorly braided, whop sided, and pink hair ties. I obey, because I know it pleases her, because I love the way her rule washes over me, because I am lucky, I am her slave, her pet, her little whore, and this is our path..
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